been a long time since i last blogged
life has been busy
but in a good way
holding 3 jobs now, and have been gg for cable as well

party yest was great with a couple of great friends and the crazy crowd
somehow i got tossed into a war zone in a min and the next i was up for some drinkin competition.

got to know more wake boardin peeps.
shall wake board more

and i have yet to receieve any news from sim bout the appeal
how nice
when e supp is coming soon.
send out invoices at an incredulous speed
but when it comes to this....

all right.
heading out to work now

merry christmas everyone!

lies and deciet
when it comes a full circle.

small accident happened while driving to work today.
amazes me how the owner of the vehicle can create such a big mole hill out of nothing.

tml will be a better day.

thats aileen


wakeboarding was great. minus off the aching right now.


improving bit by bit


met up with hui shi after that
really enjoyed my night.
2 days in paris

really like the conversation between the couple towards the end.
i guessed it just striked me real hard.

wala after tt was awsome
songs were great as usual
company of friends were great too

and some think that the truth will never surface
or perhaps when it does they will come out with more lies to cover it
it takes one lie to cover the other.
surprise surprise
but the world IS so small.
so dont challenge me or take me as a fool
im just giving you face, so wont you just fucking step down gracefully and save yourself some humilation
you fucking disgust me with your lies,
no im not a toy, or an option
dont you even think tt i wont know whats happening at the other side
so when you come back all will be fine

i hope it striked you real hard at night
that is if you have a guilty conscience
so i dont think it will hit you at all
friends are right,
its not me, its you
you are the problem, you are the one that is not worthy of everything
that i have done and given.

you not only disappointed a friend who stood there for you when you needed someone
you disappointed a partner as well.
if you think some scumbag is worth all this.
go ahead.
im moving ahead cos now i finally know your worth.
and now i know that sometimes people are not over reacting, its you that drives people to that extent.
but as usual
just put the blame on others, to make yourself feel better
i dont give 2 hoots bout it anymore.

lena, im sorry.

the whole population was in zouk yest.
super packed, cant even move an inch

the music was good though

carine thanks for the notes!

move over man, privacy pls?

rain disrupt plans.

im supposed to be at sentosa tanning

anyways, cable was great yest!

guess i was way too tired the previous time i went

yesterday with thunder was great.

bunny hopped and all. not much bad falls.

body's aching now though

pictures up in a bit.

club club club club

be be your love

If I could take you away
Pretend I was queen
What would you say
Would you think I'm unreal
'Cause everybody's got their way I should feel
Everybody's talking how
I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real
Want to be your everything
Everything...Everything's falling, and I am included in that
Oh, how I try to be just okay
Yeah, but all I ever really wanted
Was a little piece of you

note to self.
one step at a time.
people might take a shorter time to complete
one small step at a time still requires the effort and will get you to the destination

i guess ive been taking things for granted
taking the people by my side for granted.
thinking that they will always be there.
perhaps you being away, serves as a reason.

have you been taking me for granted.
thinking that i will still be around when you come back year end?
wanting attention from both sides?

results.
suck.
think when i grad
sim should award me with a long service award.

no point crying over spilt milk now
think i have shocked enough people when i just burst out yesterday

i will just do a better job.
and have fun for now.

big thanks to the people who managed to knock some sense to me.
thank you for telling me off, that im too up tight and that i should learn how to take things to stride
how i should take it easy
and whether im enjoying or whether im caught up, things wont change
i really appreciate that.
big hugs to all

on a another note
i went out with mum jus now!
i got my ray ban shades!
hehe

went to look at watches too.
told her she will have enough time to save up for the one i want.

first day of work tml
movie marathon!
i swear im a bummer.

babe enjoy your trip and come back soon ok.
hugs.

也许时间是一种解药，也是我镇服下的毒药

words.

will one catch you when you fall
or will one just choose to walk away

will one make you feel better through actions
or will one just use words to paint a beautiful picture

and at the end of the day choose an easy route to leave

ray cheng is officially sick
after continous days of wakeboarding, cable skiing and swimming
im officially down

8th wakeboarding?
23rd batam.
i scratched my board while cable the other night
heart ache
sooner or later i guess.

thanks to those who were there for me, for the past few days

im removing you out of the picture
excess baggage
thats something tt i do not need.
no longer will i question myself, feeling that i have not tried, feeling tt im not good enough
i need to stay afloat. and swim over to the shore
no longer do i want to feel affected because of you

im seeking closure

what have i done to you to deserve such a treatment
its cruel the way im loving you
its cruel tt im always the last to know
its cruel tt despite knowing i tried, you still have the heart to do such a thing.

now
that the tables have turned.
its you, that i no longer what to hear from.

im through with you

Sing a sad song

In a lonely place


Try to put a word in for me


It’s been so long


Since I found this place


You better put in two or three


We as people, are just walking ’round


Our heads are firmly fixed in the ground


What we don’t see


Well it can’t be real


What we don’t touch


we cannot feel


If you need it


Something I can give


I know I’d help you if I can


If your honest and you say that you did


You know that I would give you my hand


Or a sad song


In a lonely place


I’ll try to put a word in for you


Need a shoulder?


well if that’s the case


You know there’s nothing I wouldn’t do



babe,
sorry that i screamed on the phone just now
know i was being unreasonable
sometimes i wished you would walk away
i will feel less guilty that way
afraid that things might turn out bad

sometimes i wonder what lies ahead
if only i can press the fast forward button to catch a glimpse of it
like a trailer

and they say, everything in its time.

mum is finally coming back today
surprisingly even when shes not around i have not been staying out late
partying till dawn

results would be out soon
dec 5th
hopefully everything goes well
if it goes well enough perhaps i dont even need to pay for my own board!
YES AH!
ok till then

time

before we know it 08 is on the way
so many things happened this year that i dont even know how to sum it up or where to start
not a very fantastic year i would say, but we all learn along the way
i guess what doesnt kill you just makes you stronger and yes, im much stronger than before after a few knocks here and there.

it made me realise tt time wait for no men and that one shld really treasure and know what they want in life. grit your teeth, sweat it out, fight for it, enjoy and embrace that special moment
theres no point in fighting for something only to let it go in the middle

guess thats how im feeling right now.
but as they always say it takes two hands to clap.
so its high time for me to stop blaming myself, to stop coming out with what if's to make myself feel better and just embrace the future and what lies ahead.

im definately looking forward to the future, carving out a career for myself and all
one step at a time.
relationships? jaded i guess. dont quite believe in that for now.
2 words to sum the experience up
comfort and pain
allowing urself to feel vulnerable

i wanna thank the people who are constantly there for me to keep me sane
to steer my thoughts away, you know who you guys are :)

Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really overI’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together‘
Cause the day I thought
I’d never get through

my first entry

its been a long while since i last penned down my thoughts

and i think its high time for me to do it before it all erupts.

exams were over like 2 weeks ago

and life has been messed up

lets see,

one day after my paper, parents were overseas and will only be back on the 20th

therefore implying that my maid is on off as well. no food, no need to clean up. you name it

ok. after exams. lets see.

i got myself 2 other tattoos.

this time around on my wrist. but its UV so yeah.

wanted to get half of my back done by doug but in the end

i bought a wakeboard.

been spending quite a bit recently.

ck, ax, wakeboard, wakeboard gloves. the list goes on.

shall only think abt gettin my watch next year.

for now.

i need a j-o-b.

body has been aching like mad these days.

been wakeboarding like anything.