2009 will be a better year because:

-i have learnt the importance of always protecting myself first
-i open my eyes bigger now
-i learnt through the hard way and i will always remember that
-i learn not to trust people that easily
-i learn that there are lots of nato (no action talking only) people out there, so its better to depend on yourself
-i do not plan to carry these people forward into the new year

With 2009 approaching, i know that it will be a better year as

-i have my family, friends and most importantly, my gf here supporting me all the way

and i know thats all i need to make 09 a good year.

the past few days were great
happy birthday love.
though it was not a blast, i hoped you enjoyed your day
with the tight budget you set!
i managed to squeeze in dinner present and picnic.

the futures uncertain esp with the current economy
i might not be able to help much
but i can be your listening ear and i will be here to support you.
hugs

happy birthday baby :)

ran close to 3km yest.
considered nothin actually
but still. its an achievement since the last time i ran was when i was 16?

trying to train back.
14laps and 200 sit ups todae.

more running tml after dinner.

ok clubbing time!

met up with an old friend recently.
as we sat down and chatted
realised that time flies
in no time she's gg to be a mother
new phase of life, with different set of worries.

makes me realise that time and tide waits for no men
what is it that i want to achieve before my time is up?

the simple meet up left me feeling relieved
i guess after all these years, finally i am able to let go of the past.
without even feeling a tinch of heartache.

and for the first time after 7 years, i can finally say that im over her
and that i am finally treating her just like a friend.

so....
do you know how much you mean to me now? for me to totally put something down.

all i want is to make things work with you.
ilu.

ray cheng is gg to run later.
shall just stick to the route i ran last week
shall jog slowly today if not wed dont need to club.

wed clubbing anyone? same venue!

www.pride-apparels.blogspot.com
to those that have been following this blog but not know about my latest venture
you better check it out now!

its a online store catered mainly for asian builts and people leading the alternative life. (people like me that loves to wear shirts that fit without looking like a hanger).

so please show your support, patronize the store and spread the word around!
if you see anything you like, just drop me an email or something!

just wanna do a shout out to those who knows whats gg on right now
thanks alot for all the messages and concerns

with you guys by my side, and of course my girlfriend.
nothing will get me down

like they always say like if full of decisions
make the right one

side track:
i went running with macho mary and ah teh yesterday.
man.
they can freaking run man

to my one and only gf:
having you around believing in me and encouraging me makes a whole lot of difference.
for whatever im in, i know you will be there.
and for once i feel like i can really be myself and let someone in,
to share my thoughts, my fears and all the uncertainties i face.

dont ever feel that you have not done much when you have me wrapped around your fingers.

ilu.

thank you darling.
and in case you dont know.
you mean the world to me.

decisions

random


washing the tank is shit.


manly teh and myself almost died


and it is currently housing 140 odd fishes.


to condusive i would say








fry batch number one.


i swear if they dont start dying


im dead





my new phone is coming finally!


something to finally remind the scattered brains.





i need to read up the instruction manual for the new camera


been testing it out


friend commented that it is almost idiot proof.





pauper

ok lunch time.

missing you in a heart beat.

i miss you.

hey love
do enjoy yr short trip later.

not going to rant and nag as i know you know how to take good care of yrself.
im going to miss you though and im counting down till you're home.

though its just a short trip.
your gf is already missing you lots here.
have a good trip!

i may not be the best person that you can find
foul temper, bad with words, not delicate and sensitive enough
but yes im trying. and i do love you from deep down.

70 0dd hours till i see you again
cant wait

love ray.

the biggest laggard finally owns a ipod
courtesy from the girlfriend
and yes the computer idiot had to google just to find out how to delete songs

1
2
3
yes just laugh already.

AVE Q!
heh
for those corrupted ones who have yet to catch it
pls do.

happy third anniversary love
time sure flies.

this is only going to get stronger with the test of time
and i find myself just falling more as each day pass by.

even friends feel happy for me as they can see im truly happy and contented from within

we'll work things out as the going gets tough

I never cared for simple words of tenderness
I never thought my life could be as sweet as this
But now I know, I want to spend it all with you, baby.

I drive my car and think about you constantly
I lie awake and I want to feel you next to me
What can I do? - my lifes only complete with you, baby
Oh dont you know
You are the one I treasure
A part of me forever

And Ill be there with you
Whatever you do
With all of my heart I promise you
Ill be there with you
Just know that its true
With all of my heart Im there for you
Wherever you go - Ill be there
Whatever were up against
Just know that Ill be there with you

Youre like the sun that brightens up the darkest skies
The only one Im seeing when I close my eyes
Oh cant you see, youll never be alone again, baby
Dont you know
You are the one I treasure
A part of me forever
Youre like the sunrise Ive waited to see
A beautiful moment always with me
Ive waited a lifetime only to be - be with you

alan pls take good care of that nose of yours
not good looking already so please be more careful

its a rainy day and im home revising
a i u e o
ka ki ku ke ko
sa shi su se so

ever wondered how much time they are given to write an essay?
god.

after talking to t* i feel more positive about things now.

i had an awful hair cut and my hair looks like crap now
so i was in the worse mood yest and i could have killed someone while driving home yesterday

and i thank my girlfriend for being ever so understanding and tolerant.
hugs.
ilu

ilu

and im sorry for the times that i made you feel insecure
for the times where i might not have spared a thought for you
for the tears that rolled down your cheek

for you i will be a better person
the one that you can count on

hope u're fine with the color of the player
was staring at all of them not knowing which to get.

we'll do this together.

ooh its something about
just somethin about the way she move
i cant figure it out
theres somethin about her
its somethin about
kinda woman that want you but dont need you
hey i cant figure it out
theres something about her

cause she walk like a boss
talk like a boss
manicured nails to set the pedicure off
shes fly effortlessly
and she move like a boss
do what a boss do
she got me thinkin about getting involved
thats the kinda girl i need oh
she got her own thing thats why i love her
miss independent
wont you come and spend a little time
she got her own thing
thats why i love her
ooh the way we shine
miss independent
ooh theres somethin about
kinda woman that can do for herself
i look at her and it makes me proud
theres somethin about her
theres somethin oh so sexy about
kinda woman that dont even need my help
she said she got it she got it no doubt
theres something about her

negativity.

will you stand by me
hold on and never let me go?

i am blessed to find what i need
in the world losing hope
youre my only believe
you make things right every time after time.

today is just one of those days where you feel like crap
getting all sensitive and feeling vulnerable

where you just want to snap out of it but you dont know how.

good night people.

time flies when you are happy
its the second month now
im really happy that we took the first step together
trying to work things out and accepting each others flaws.

i love you
and for you,
i'll be the person that you want me to be.

happy 2nd month anniversary love.

I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

you are the pillar in my life
that keeps me going
i love you baby.

for us

thank god i found you

you.
the little things you do
just make me love you more

days pass.
and everyday i just keep reminding myself
how lucky i am
to just have you here by my side.

im yours
im strong on the surface
but not all the way through
so take my heart and handle it with care
and in return
i will be here for you
to walk with you
hand in hand
ilu

It's your love
Better than I was
More than I am
All of that happened
By takin' your hand
Who I am now
Is who I've wanted to be
Now that we're together
Stronger than ever, happy and free
Oh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
And if you ask me why I'll change
All I gotta do is say your sweet name

happy anniversary baby

i realised something yesterday

it doesnt matter where we are

or what we do

or whos with us

just as long as you are there

be it whether its the 30 or the 31st.

im glad that we both take the step

and i hope you like the little gift.

sounds cliche

but yes you are carrying a part of me with you now.

with love :)

sometimes i cant help thinking whether im cut out
or whether im competent

drained.

the voice inside that tells you to just keep going and trying
just gets softer

with all the what ifs swirling in your head.

am i alone at this?

hi.
i am still alive
not for long now
just read an article on smoking
on how 23 yr olds look like 32
wah. hit me hard man.

to a healthier regime
i have decided that
fri would be swimming day
sat massage day

ms teh.
imu

why am i waiting.

i need divine intervention
forces from the dark side
anything!

i need sales
anyone tt wants to advertise in a gourmet magazine
pls look for evelyn cheng.
thankyouverymuch

things are always like that
when you are desperate and when you want something alot
it just doesnt happen

and when you walk away from the deal or from the situation
it comes knocking on your door

should i or should i not.

argh!

its 5.51pm
39 more mins to the happiest time of my day
baby time.

everyday i love you

no more talk of darkness
forget these wide eyed fears
im here, nothing can harm you
my words will warm and calm you
let me be your freedom
let daylight dry your tears
im here, beside you
to guard you and to guide you

say you love me every waking moment
turn my head with talk of summertime
say you need me with you
now and always
promise me that all you say is truue

thats all i ask of you

you have stolen my heart

cos every little thing you do
makes me fall in love with you

it takes more than a hopeless romantic to sweep me off my feet
it takes you.

see the pyramids around the Nile
watch the sunrise from a tropic isle
just remember darling all the while
you belong to me
see the marketplace in old Angier
send me photographs and souvenirs
just remember when a dream appears
you belong to me
and I'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too
fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember till you're home again
you belong to me oh
I'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too
fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember till you're home again
you belong to me

get well soon baby girl
days without you around are hard to get by.
the thought of an energizer bunny resting at home is just worrying.
hugs. missing you girl

starting work tml.
mixed emotions.
just hope that i can rise to the occasion
and be bigger the problems that would come.

positive mindset.

think before you speak
i know what i want, and im grabbing on to it.

sleep early day today.

lurking

the perfect night to go hand in hand through the mission
as the night goes on danger lurks

Intimacy is invited,
ecstasy is invoked.
Ecstasy is experienced as one-ness
intimacy requires two-ness

so does paranoia
braving away from external, unforseen circumstances
till its overwhelming
shelving away all other emotions and attractions

you are experiencing
very joy
very hugo

two straight days of tanning.
and im officially black

still hunting for jobs.
trust me. i have been sending out tons of resumes.
marketing/pr/events/advertising.
to no avail

necks finally getting better now, and hopefully after the massage tml
it will be fine.
cabling on sat! (fingers cross)

quick shout out:

lulu: meet soon. you better update me more abt that fridae.com girl (yet another)
thunder: thanks.
ash: first day at work. hit it with your best shot!
you: and im just counting down the hours. missing you.

lets remember today's date.
for its one worth looking back, reminiscing

hopeless romantic maybe.
but im your hopeless romantic.

all i ever need or want is just a chance
to prove its worth

and yes im here to hold your hand
braving through it all.

capiche?


ok.
i need to send more resumes.

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be, always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one
I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul...
You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine, moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
common lets try

im happy.

the next time the same question is asked.
all i have to say is i know what i want.
and its right in front of me.

interview the other day was 1.5 hrs long
and im seriously just worn out
interviews after interviews.
getting through the first round and waiting for the person to get back to you
man.

jobless with loads of time on hand would only mean...
being broke.

went to watch X files today
thought it was kinda draggy.
ray cheng being ray cheng.
rushed for nothing.
thought the show was at 630 instead of 7.
imagine.

sometimes things people do really just leave you speechless.
i know what i want and i wont sway though

jobs jobs jobs

liang yong qi-yong qi

i dont believe that she wants to come bk to me anymore.

i see you, you with him
he aint right but you dont trip
you stand by while he lies
then turn right round and forgive

i cant take to see your face
with those tears runnin down your cheeks
but what can i do, i gotta stay true
because deep down im still a G

i dont want to come between you and your man
even though i know i treat you better than he can

girl i cant help but wait
till you get that with him it wont change
cant help but wait
till you see that with me it aint the same

cant help but wait
till you see you for what you really are
baby girl you are a star
and i cant help but wait

sometimes it feels like im in this alone
but if time is what you need.
i'll be there when turn around

cant help but wait

the wheels on the bus go round and round
round and round,
round and round

wakie sat?

looking forward towards the weekend

and.

i need a god damn job

tears that burn the pillow
nobody knows it but me.

take a chance, come undone
no one knows whats at the other side waiting.
no one knows how things will end up to be.

take the leap.
even if i fall, i know i can get up in no time.

slipknot-wait and bleed

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

its really funny how things work out sometimes
trying and perserverance might not get one anywhere sometimes, when it comes to feelings at least.
i guessed i have had my fair share of that.
trying to ignore to signs and still live in self denial that things would work its way out
that people will learn how to change.
its just like a man clinging to his very life beliving in divine intervention

i guess after some time
you will jus learn how to stop hoping
stop pretending that everything is fine.

i guess everyone has their right to be happy
i want to be happy
and leave this mess

its only through events like this.
it makes me realise tt small little things make me really happy

no one knows whats going to happen in future
i will just take it as it comes.
one step at a time.
contentment.

no promises.

Knew the signs wasn’t right
I was stupid, for a while Swept away, by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be

Catch myself, from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy, everyday
I know I will be ok
But I’m So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You’ll be out of my mind
I’ll be over you
And know I’m So confused My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There’s a life out there for me

crushed.

just that when you thought things couldnt get any worse
it does.
my old pal and i were talking just a few days back about how we should react when we realise our first loves are getting married.

i kinda just shrug it off because i thought that it wont happen to me, not as yet.
and i was all so wrong.

dinner was fine yesterday catching up with an old friend
till she broke the news to me.
do you know that kw is getting married?
she totally regretted telling me that very instant.

i totally cant comprehend how exactly i was feeling
all i kept saying was the man is a very very lucky guy
and if he ever screws it up
his nuts is surely gg to be on a silver platter
but i guess she is both smart and old enough to make her own decisions
you wont be reading this at all
but i wish you all the best in everything you do

if you guys are wondering, yes after a long thought.
i will be there.


so many things have been happening in such a short period of time
now i wonder whether lesbians are nothing but drama.

sometimes i feel that when something is no longer working
someone has to take the step to cut things off.
even though you will leave your comfort zone.

relationship.
when the relation boarded a whrecked ship
what happens.
i guess two people who are in love have to just treasure what they have and steer it into the correct directions
finding ways to fall in love everyday
learning more about each other and all
but what happens when the betrayal comes?
when water is sipping in slowly and surely into the ship.

the harder you try
the harder you fall.
and in the end you feel like all is in vain
indifferent to the situation or the person.

so who is to blame?
the person who does not feel the same way anymore
or the person who got it bad right from the start?

misunderstood.

HELL LOT OF FISHES and yes i am scared.

some jap rest.

this is how to kill time

view from our room

karon beach-phuket

back for two days now
photos will be up in no time.
i love phuket!
the beach, the sea, the sand.
i wanna be back to body surf.

bkk is as usual.
hot and humid. didnt really enjoy since i was not feeling well

diarrhoea for two days now.
argh

time to go look for a job after all the damage.
there goes my 3k :(

i should not have bought.

1: my psp (cos my sister and my gf use them more than i do)
2: gucci belt (cos i haven got a chance to wear it)
3: the hell bell jeans ( so what if its a french label)
4: the paul smith shoes (so what if my gf said its nice)
5: tailor make 6 shirts

with all the money spent i could have gotten a nice nice tattoo

i need to save money!
thank god the insurance claim is coming

i want to go bk to phuket.
or go to krabi/ koh samui/cebu/maldives
(ashley can stay here all she wants)
my gf is burnt!

Do you know where your heart is
Do you think you can find it
Did you trade it for something, somewhere
Better just to have it
Do you know where your love is
Do you think that you lost it
You felt it so strong but nothings
Turned out how you want it
Well bless my soulYou`re a lonely soul
Cause you wont let go
Of anything you hold

Well all I need is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head
Do you know what your fate is
And are you trying to shake it
You`re doing your best and
You`re best look
You`re praying that you`ll make it
Well bless my soul
You`re a lonely soul
Cause you wont let go
Of anything you hold


im bored stiff at home down with lungs infection.
i wish im still schooling or something man. at least i will be occupied
dempsy tonight, sis's bdae.
i shall not drink so much

i want to fall in love again.
how?

though sick

WHERE MA PARTY PEOPLE AT!?

wed.thurs.

note to my sis: dont bother detoxing. try after wed. haha

Don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow
Grab your clothes and get gone (You better hurry up)
Before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' bout "Girl, I love you you're the one..."
This just looks like a re-run (Please)
What else is on?
And don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow A
nd the award for the best liar goes to you
For makin' me believe That you could be Faithful to me
Let's hear your speech oh...
How bout a round of applause?
But it's over now...

finally im a graduate.
took half a semester longer than others
results are not as good as i expected it to be.

got 2 HD and a Dist but ended up with credits for exams.
mum's still really happy bout it that she broadcasted to everyone i know.
the next thing i knew people were congratulating me.
wah lao.
degree only, think i got PHD meh!

before i can enjoy my break
im down with flu and all.
i hope i recover by next week.

sapphira come back soon ok, i do miss you

its shopping time!

to buy list (courtesy of mummy kim)
1: tissot watch
2: E.A watch
3: oakley/marc jacobs glasses
4: more working shirts :(
5: pants
6: flat screen tv for my room

to be cont.

interviews interviews interviews
talk about transitions
think im gg to suffer from identity crisis soon

bought just one ladies shirt n pants and 240 bucks vanished.
i need to tailor man!

its scary how thoughts and beliefs can be moulded into young minds
through different means, evoking fear, making them feel lousy and than presenting them the solution to the problems.

it makes you think again.
jesus camp.

which brings me to a topic.
the two women came knocking on my door again
looking for miss cheng.
with a bible in hand with a horse like smile showing their teeth
persistent? yes very.
not sensitive and stubborn? very as well
respect one's decision man.

i think they should be marketers and sales personnels instead.

When the one thing you’re looking for
Is nowhere to be found
And you back stepping all of your moves
Trying to figure it out
You wanna reach out
You wanna give in
Your head’s wrapped around what’s around the next bend
You wish you could find something warm
'Cause you’re shivering cold
It’s the first thing you see as you open your eyes
The last thing you say as your saying goodbye
Something inside you is crying and driving you on
It’s the first thing you see as you open your eyes
The last thing you say as your saying goodbye
Something inside you is crying and driving you on'
Cause if you hadn't found me
I would have found you

something inside

as im the only cam whore tt night together with lulu

i dont have pictures of the rest of the crew

babe, send me those in your phone!

ok the weather is driving me insane

even the dogs at home are restless and not responding.

i NEED a hair cut

as usual i teared while catching made of honour
sometimes you never know how to appreciate things and people in your life till they are gone
and than you will fight to get them back.

why cant one just accept the fact and support the person whole heartedly
at least thats what i'll do

keyshia cole-i remember

clubbing on thurs made me realised that im no longer young when
1: u see people using sec/poly passes
2: your hair feels deflated in comparison to others out there
3: you can no longer hold/ consume as much as before
4: you wake up and feeling zonked throughout the whole day

2 hours of cabling before that sure did not help

i want to do my jump start 360 and get up the blardy ramp!

exams are finally over
hopefully the results will justify my efforts
kinda screwed up amca again.

however for the first time i would say that im really proud of myself this time ard.
i have proved to myself that for once i can be a leader and i can be an asset in the group
for once, leading a group instead of just taking orders, putting in more initiative
it was not easy at all
things turned out to be kinda ugly as well with former group mates and all
but yes at the end of the day, i realised that i can manage all well without any drama or disputes.

friends come and go.
some even shun away
no one is perfect, and im glad that for those who are still around

really appreciate all the encouragements and shoulders that were there when i needed them.
sharon, thunder, ivy, wei jie, alan, lulu, huishi and most importantly ashley
thanks :)

for now its just working part time
rearing and trying to keep my fishes alive
and couting down to phuket and bkk.

till then

no pain no gain

face plant. butt hit the fun box. hip got whacked on the fun box, sprained ankle
you name it.
2 hours without much break.
the right side of my body is soar now.

i swear im going through puberty
lunch: big large pizza, one big burger with extra cheese, egg and bacon
dinner: sakae dinner

whens the last time we paid entrance fee and visited some tourist-y area
we did today; under water world.
haha. i want to squeeze the slow stupid fish again.
feels so good patting e stingray. it feels so tender, fresh and edible. heh
hope the weather will be less cranky on monday
i need to tann

i want to cable soon too, in my new jersey! heh
all i need now is my life vest.
better still ipod touch a water proof case, to hit the wake

ciao.

exams: may 8th and 12th
i need divine intervention!
thank god mok is willing to tutor me.
really appreciate that.

ok.
ray cheng's want list.

oris skeleton watch/ cartier watch
bally bag
liquid force/ o neil life jacket
tailored made working clothes (more of a need)
taiwan trip
bangkok and phuket trip
tag/ swiss flex/ hugo boss glasses

finally.

this semester is coming to an end.
submitted the final project on friday with a great sense of realive
finally its done.

the beginning of this semester was not smooth sailing at all
lots of drama, members leaving and all.
lots of mixed emotions then, thinking abt what would happen to the group, whether i can make it alone, why some can make such a drastic step and all.

im just glad that i have a bunch of great friends supporting me throughout
like the saying goes, what doesnt kill you makes you stronger, as you have to rise to the occasion
and i guess i did.
some just talk,
but my pals walk the talk.

keith, thanks for the msg that night, it really motivated me alot. sticking through and all
lulu: really appreciate you hearing me out and comforting me.
sharon chang: HUGS
thunder: always steering me back to the right direction.
last but not least
thank you baby girl.
its not just words you speak.
its your actions.

when you do what you do best.

the signs are clear
the reasonings are stupid
the obvious lies

the next time you want to lie about stuffs.
why not take it from me.
do not be so eager to prove your innocence
come out with a game plan first.

and i wonder how do you quarrel with someone
when you claimed you couldnt be bothered to even read it
and you only cldnt be bothered to read it only when am ard,
anxiously pushing the lap top away from me, closing the screen?

im not born yesterday.
neither am i as dumb as you think i am.

when you do what you do best.

thanks to the stupid credit card syndicates
im one credit card less.

wacc sucks!
amca too

dempsy

3 bottles of champgne
4 beers = no school today

had a great time yest with a couple of pals
catchin up
its hilarious when they are gone.

sometimes i have to learn how to be contented.

time check:11.23pm
just came back home not too long ago.
BF test... i made such a stupid careless mistake today! argh
shall just pray for the best
cant wait for the results to be out

went to super famous with nad and the rest
i swear its never good to place a whole bunch of marketing students together
good fun though

the back of my van has a new name
its called love shack.
and no i did not come out with that name

i haven seen a bulge for a long time
dinner was crazy
its time i hit the gym or somethin.
food at raku zen was good though.

ok
WACC SUCKS

disappointment is keeping me awake.
i feel silly.

better in time

I'm not calling for a second chance, I'm screaming at the top of my voice, Give me reason, but don't give me choice, Cos I'll just to make the same mistake again

i swear im living in the adams family
years have made my mother senile

yesterday when i got home i realised tt there were new pets at home
not a dog, not a cat
try 2 boxes of CRICKETS!
insects!

mum said the sound of the crickets makes her feel at ease
the sight of it makes me tense up.
poor ah lai tried to greet me in the morning and i got paranoid thinkin tt the crickets escaped
next thing i knew?
i kicked him in the head.

at night, it felt as though im living in safari or something
with all the buzzing.



sis says:
how many are there in a box??
Ray C. fundamentally happy. says:
30 plus?!?!?!
sis says:
haha oil fry them. nice
Ray C. ...............

cramps.

there goes my plans.

here i am stuck at home on my off day

i can barely walk.

argh screw the pills that i took last month

clement: have a good trip! study hard and come back with flying colours!

when the falls start falling apart
when the ambiguity continues
i dont think i can hang in there much longer

ambiguities.options.alternatives.

we are not together, so perhaps we can stop acting like we are.

im still not over it. her.

cabling today was great!
solid two hours.
no clips though. the zoom function of my camera is spoilt
today is the day where i hit the ramp the most amt of times.

the next time im gg to try to kicker
and if i manage to do it.
ashley koh you better keep to yr promise
2 hrs of cabling on you

and yest was the first time i made a fool out of myself
trying to do something for the first time
a sport that i have never considered it as being a sport. (paron me)
bowling. . . . . .
i swear my friends are evil.
made me look like a fool
other than 3 strikes
the rest was trash

happy chinese new year people!

and i wonder whether this is a cable ski trip......

greetings people

so far so good. im still sane.

working in a bit.

i swear im dead tired and my ears are stucked

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen,
I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

thailand and back
6 days 5 nights
more than enough time for me to sort my thoughts up
am feeling much better now i guess.

positive thinking
am 1.5k poorer now.
need to thank a good pal of mine
for making this trip happen.
for always being there taking care of me
and consoling me.

shall just be focused

ray:sometimes i really wonder if theres anyone out there who still mean what they say.
friend: why will she wann abother abt you when she can call you up n have e cheek to say all tt,
you chose to trust her too much tts why
ray: yeah.

its scary how come stuffs just got span out of proportion
and the lies that they tell just to cover things out,
only to find some excuses hoping to cover them

whats worse is to find out that people these days dont seem to know how to honour their words
and proving the point that words are cheap
one min its like that, the other its not.

how people can just turn their backs and walk away like that
even to those who showed their care and concern, picking you up when you fall.

i guess thats life
and its shows alot doesnt it.

perhaps this is all a blessing in disguise for me
enough tears

disappointments
time after time
having to find out

i dont want to know anymore

ah lai's day out

sometimes i prefer to keep my thoughts to myself

and i thank those who are constantly here for me

encouraging me and all without trying to probe or poke their nose in too much

i really appreciate that.

school is starting tml and i totally dread it

retaking subjects that i have done before

going back to projects and all.

frustrations and all building up

im amazed at how fast people get replaced

i understand that no one is indispensible

but so quickly?
doesnt it tell alot?

one min you are entitled to something

the next not.

CNY is ard the corner

cant wait to go for a short break during that period of time

those tt are interested, do let me know.

hatred disgust disappointment all at a time
i find myself waiting for a call or a msg at 3am in the morning.
why come back now
when u were the one who said things were not working.
it sure took you a long time...

empty promises

disappointments
one after the other
in a short span of a week
everythings just over.

so much for the promises and words.
who am i to put the blame on anyone anyway

some people out there just needs to learn how to mind their own business


Tried to take a picture Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That muchI want to fill this new frame
But its empty
Tried to write a letter
In inkIts been getting betterI think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing Is beating our hearts
We're empty
And I've even wondered
If weShould be getting under these sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty
Its empty


the only thing im looking forward to for today would be cabling.
shall just try all the stuffs that i didnt have the guts to do
nothing to lose.

knee's getting better, but its still really weak.
thanks for the knee guard.

school's opening in a few days time