time

time flies, before you know it 2010 is approaching.

age really creeps up on you, before you know it its time to go.

just came back from the trip 2 days ago.

phi phi is a nice and relaxing place.

clear skies, nice water, laid back

spent christmas and boxing day there, could really feel the sadness in the atmosphere

i really feel for those who were affected back in 04 when the tsunami swept many away

may you find the peace to move on.

for me, 2010 is a year to get my health back in shape.

for me to really start a healthy lifestyle, waking up and sleeping early

not skipping meals, to exercise and prepare for april.

learnt it the hard way that we should not take health for granted.

finishing my fourth course of anti biotics and im feeling much better,

so i thank god for that.

and i should stop abusing my body but adding toxics in.

no more tobaccos and hard liqour.

hello to red wine champgne and occasional beer.

overall i guess 2009 has been a good year.

family and love ones are all healthy and happy

no mishaps

till today i know i made a right choice on july 30th 08

heres to you:

happy 17th month anniversary love,

and many more to come.

only you can make me whole again

Tidal Wave
To see a tidal wave in your dream, represents an overwhelming emotional issue that demands attention. You may have been keeping your feelings and negative emotions bottled up inside for too long. On a positive note, the tidal wave symbolizes the clearing away of old beliefs. If you are carried away by the tidal wave, then it signifies that you are ready to make a brand new start in a new place.
To dream that you can create a tidal wave with your mind, is analogous to your ability to control your emotions and keep them in line.

Taken from a blog...

You know your girlfriend is a keeper when she:
1. Parks her car closer to her side so you can get out easily.
2. Kisses you good morning and good night.
3. Always offers to help you carry anything heavy.
4. Doesn't mind that you are getting fat.
5. Hand washes your underwear.
6. Keeps every promise she makes.
7. Completes your sentence.
8. Rubs your tummy when you are having cramps.
9. Always volunteers to wash the dishes.
10. Clears half of her wardrobe for you without asking.
11. Makes sure you drink enough water.
12. Takes the time to console you.
13. Offers to burst your pimple.
14. Doesn't mind hugging you when you are sweaty.
15. Your friends rave about her.
16. Takes great care of her family.
17. Always ask you whether you are hungry.
18. Loves holding your hand.
19. Always holds the door for you.
20. Feels good when you are feeling good.

i love you darling :)

"When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. "~ Franklin D. Roosevelt

luck down the drain

when luck is not here all sorts of shit just hits you
from burst deals to someone banging and scratching yr car when u are parked nicely in a proper lot.

oh wells.

after the rain comes sun.

hyped up!

ok im gettin all hyped up here.
after comments on my tummy i have been swimming and going back to the jaccuzzi again.
heres next.
i have found myself a partner and we will be sending ourselves to hell for 2 weeks.
tiger muaythai at phuket here we go!
2 weeks in april. train everyday. 3 or 6 hours.
i will come bk with a mother fucking flat tummy.
so i think i shld prepare myself for the runs and the skippings start from today.

things to do:
skip down stairs everyday
swimming twice a week
back to the gym? hmmm....

Maturity of mind is the capacity to endure uncertainty.


so things have not been going exactly smoothly. but i guess im still getting by.
i need to be on a trip soon.

ah fu is finally retiring.
introducing the huge ass big heavy brick laptop that is gg to take over most of the work.

its been awhile since i last blogged.
things are still pretty much the same.
finally caught up with friends and im glad that everyone's doing fine in their life.

my job has been okay i guessed.
i think i have seen 37894754053435498765432 different kinds of people around.
from the nicest to the those who you just feel like stabbing them.
i think my temper is getting better as im not as bothered anymore.
i need to have a game plan.

bintan/ taiwan??

on board relation-ship

disclaimer to readers.
what you are going to read later might not be pleasant. whatever written is based purely on my views. if you do not like what you are going to read. i suggest you leave the page now.

no one knows or has exact an exact formula to maintain a healthy relationship. and seriously sometimes its really a bitch to try to communicate with humans. what i do know or feel at least is that in a relationship it fucking takes two hands to clap. and when theres unhappiness its better to resolve it now than to just ignore each other and sleep on it. perhaps some people can sleep on it like it doesnt matter. but trust me not all can. put yourself in the fucking insomniacs shoes. neither do i see why must one always be the first to apologize or start a conversation. seriously try being the one giving in all the time. so if you cant even give in once due to ego issues/stubborness or whatever. what makes you think its any easier for the party who tries to give in constantly after being tormented for one whole night.
yeah and the person is just so cursed and worthless that he/she cant even show a tinge of unhappiness cos once the fella did. the partner will just return the favor and tell the person if u dont like tt dont do it on others. excuse me, what about the cold shoulders in the first place then. come on if that isnt double standards i seriously dont know what is.
you know what.
i have 78690975073400374 things on my mind now but hell to that. cos the other party will just be able to come out with another billion more and it will all just look bad on me again.

i rest my case.

so sick

no i dont think im cut out for all that.

i want to feel pain.

eat my dust

i got my ces
to those who asked me not to take it so soon and that i will surely fail.

11 and counting
ilu :)

fucked up

fucking pissed off
seriously people, get a life and stop wasting time.
its just a rental, need to bring your grand parents in for a stroll first ah.
when you say you need it immediately, seriously i dont think 1 mth is immediate.
you dont buy a bun after having one full meal do you.
dont fucking demand a castle when u can only afford a den.
fucking small fry, small deal dont make it sound like its big shit.

flashing.

perhaps am not good enough
therefore the quarrels.

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly

And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway

heh i got a new bag! fred perry!
thanks rabster!

and im falling sick now.
roar

8. to the special one.

happy anniversary

thank you
for sticking here with me through the good and the bad
for being so understanding and patient despite my working schedule
for encouraging me when im at my lowest
for always believing in me, supporting me and putting up with me
for making me laugh when i dont wanna smile

there will definately be more bumpy roads ahead
but with you here i know nothing is impossible and we will make it work

i love you and im proud to be able to call you mine.
:)

i think there are more than 10 000 thoughts running through my head right now.

i need to swim.

take me away

and i say. hang in there.
rachel yamagata in april. heh!

To dream the impossible dream,
To fight the unbeatable foe,
To bear with unbearable sorrow,
To run where the brave dare not go.

To right the unrightable wrong,
To love pure and chaste from afar,
To try when your arms are too weary,
To reach the unreachable star.

This is my quest,
To follow that star --
No matter how hopeless,
No matter how far.
To fight for the right
Without question or pause,
To be willing to march
Into hell for a heavenly cause.

And I know if I'll only be true
To this glorious quest
That my heart will be peaceful and calm
when I'm laid to my rest.

And the world will be better for this,
that one man scorned and covered with scars
still strove with his last ounce of courage.
To reach the unreachable star.

long long long weekend.
was working the whole time.
you made it better :)

another long week ahead.
its about time to close another deal.

ilu.

i wonder..

good intentions turned bad

cant help but wonder.

two different perspectives.

im taking it till i cant.

The foolish race of mankind are swarming below in the night; they shriek and rage and quarrel -- and all of them are right.Heinrich Heine

Look at my face
What do you see in my eyes
When a part of me just dies
I cry real tears
I have real fears
I've got a heart that's beating inside

Sometimes it breaks, and when it aches
My eyes cry real tears
You treat me like you think I'm made of stone
Like when I'm cut I don't bleed
Don't you know that I'm flesh and bone


good night people.

when the heart breaks, it dont break even

in the office now and i am fighting with my emotions and the thoughts in my head

i thought abt alot of things to say but my mind is in a blank now.

its been a long week and i need a break.

comments

sometimes people really shoot start thinking inside their heads
before shooting.

i start to question one's eq.

start practising internal locus of control.

click

i want to press the fast forward button

we dont even remember why were fighting for...
for nothing
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
Mad at you,
And I don't want you to go to bed
Mad at me.