thoughts

time..

2010-03-25T14:08:00.002+08:00

time flies..
looking back my last post was posted in jan.

2nd quarter of the year is coming real soon.
time to sit back and reflect on what we have done over the past months.

the new year resolutions that were set out last year
how many were accomplished?

for me, im quite proud to say that i have not been smoking since last year
not even a stick, and i have not broken the promise of leading a healthier lifestyle.

i guess the first step to everything is normally the hardest.
been training regularly at vanda boxing club for close to a month now.

i must say that exercising really pays off
my sleeping disorders are at bay now.

april is on its way and most of my friends will know that hell weeks are coming.
sinbi camp for 2 weeks! hopefully i will be able to pull through and come out with fitter and stronger

things to do in may:

1: get back to work. planning and marketing.
2: pride apparels.

till then..

2010-01-06T11:07:00.002+08:00

note to self:

WAKE UP EARLY EVERYDAY!!!! ( i find this almost impossible)

swim twice a week, plus two laps for every session

sign up with fight works in feb, twice a week at least

fight works in march: twice a week, two times a day.

april: sinbi.

time

2009-12-30T22:28:00.002+08:00

time flies, before you know it 2010 is approaching.

age really creeps up on you, before you know it its time to go.

just came back from the trip 2 days ago.

phi phi is a nice and relaxing place.

clear skies, nice water, laid back

spent christmas and boxing day there, could really feel the sadness in the atmosphere

i really feel for those who were affected back in 04 when the tsunami swept many away

may you find the peace to move on.

for me, 2010 is a year to get my health back in shape.

for me to really start a healthy lifestyle, waking up and sleeping early

not skipping meals, to exercise and prepare for april.

learnt it the hard way that we should not take health for granted.

finishing my fourth course of anti biotics and im feeling much better,

so i thank god for that.

and i should stop abusing my body but adding toxics in.

no more tobaccos and hard liqour.

hello to red wine champgne and occasional beer.

overall i guess 2009 has been a good year.

family and love ones are all healthy and happy

no mishaps

till today i know i made a right choice on july 30th 08

heres to you:

happy 17th month anniversary love,

and many more to come.

only you can make me whole again

2009-10-27T13:11:00.000+08:00

Tidal Wave
To see a tidal wave in your dream, represents an overwhelming emotional issue that demands attention. You may have been keeping your feelings and negative emotions bottled up inside for too long. On a positive note, the tidal wave symbolizes the clearing away of old beliefs. If you are carried away by the tidal wave, then it signifies that you are ready to make a brand new start in a new place.
To dream that you can create a tidal wave with your mind, is analogous to your ability to control your emotions and keep them in line.

2009-10-15T16:53:00.001+08:00

Taken from a blog...

You know your girlfriend is a keeper when she:
1. Parks her car closer to her side so you can get out easily.
2. Kisses you good morning and good night.
3. Always offers to help you carry anything heavy.
4. Doesn't mind that you are getting fat.
5. Hand washes your underwear.
6. Keeps every promise she makes.
7. Completes your sentence.
8. Rubs your tummy when you are having cramps.
9. Always volunteers to wash the dishes.
10. Clears half of her wardrobe for you without asking.
11. Makes sure you drink enough water.
12. Takes the time to console you.
13. Offers to burst your pimple.
14. Doesn't mind hugging you when you are sweaty.
15. Your friends rave about her.
16. Takes great care of her family.
17. Always ask you whether you are hungry.
18. Loves holding your hand.
19. Always holds the door for you.
20. Feels good when you are feeling good.

i love you darling :)

2009-10-09T13:46:00.000+08:00

"When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. "~ Franklin D. Roosevelt

luck down the drain

2009-10-09T01:17:00.002+08:00

when luck is not here all sorts of shit just hits you
from burst deals to someone banging and scratching yr car when u are parked nicely in a proper lot.

oh wells.

after the rain comes sun.

hyped up!

2009-10-01T10:56:00.002+08:00

ok im gettin all hyped up here.
after comments on my tummy i have been swimming and going back to the jaccuzzi again.
heres next.
i have found myself a partner and we will be sending ourselves to hell for 2 weeks.
tiger muaythai at phuket here we go!
2 weeks in april. train everyday. 3 or 6 hours.
i will come bk with a mother fucking flat tummy.
so i think i shld prepare myself for the runs and the skippings start from today.

things to do:
skip down stairs everyday
swimming twice a week
back to the gym? hmmm....

2009-09-15T19:12:00.001+08:00

Maturity of mind is the capacity to endure uncertainty.

so things have not been going exactly smoothly. but i guess im still getting by.
i need to be on a trip soon.

2009-08-17T13:45:00.003+08:00

ah fu is finally retiring.
introducing the huge ass big heavy brick laptop that is gg to take over most of the work.

its been awhile since i last blogged.
things are still pretty much the same.
finally caught up with friends and im glad that everyone's doing fine in their life.

my job has been okay i guessed.
i think i have seen 37894754053435498765432 different kinds of people around.
from the nicest to the those who you just feel like stabbing them.
i think my temper is getting better as im not as bothered anymore.
i need to have a game plan.

bintan/ taiwan??

on board relation-ship

2009-07-17T13:21:00.003+08:00

disclaimer to readers.
what you are going to read later might not be pleasant. whatever written is based purely on my views. if you do not like what you are going to read. i suggest you leave the page now.

no one knows or has exact an exact formula to maintain a healthy relationship. and seriously sometimes its really a bitch to try to communicate with humans. what i do know or feel at least is that in a relationship it fucking takes two hands to clap. and when theres unhappiness its better to resolve it now than to just ignore each other and sleep on it. perhaps some people can sleep on it like it doesnt matter. but trust me not all can. put yourself in the fucking insomniacs shoes. neither do i see why must one always be the first to apologize or start a conversation. seriously try being the one giving in all the time. so if you cant even give in once due to ego issues/stubborness or whatever. what makes you think its any easier for the party who tries to give in constantly after being tormented for one whole night.
yeah and the person is just so cursed and worthless that he/she cant even show a tinge of unhappiness cos once the fella did. the partner will just return the favor and tell the person if u dont like tt dont do it on others. excuse me, what about the cold shoulders in the first place then. come on if that isnt double standards i seriously dont know what is.
you know what.
i have 78690975073400374 things on my mind now but hell to that. cos the other party will just be able to come out with another billion more and it will all just look bad on me again.

i rest my case.

so sick

2009-07-17T12:25:00.002+08:00

no i dont think im cut out for all that.

i want to feel pain.

eat my dust

2009-07-02T19:16:00.003+08:00

i got my ces
to those who asked me not to take it so soon and that i will surely fail.

11 and counting
ilu :)

fucked up

2009-06-03T15:17:00.002+08:00

fucking pissed off
seriously people, get a life and stop wasting time.
its just a rental, need to bring your grand parents in for a stroll first ah.
when you say you need it immediately, seriously i dont think 1 mth is immediate.
you dont buy a bun after having one full meal do you.
dont fucking demand a castle when u can only afford a den.
fucking small fry, small deal dont make it sound like its big shit.

flashing.

2009-04-20T17:08:00.002+08:00

perhaps am not good enough
therefore the quarrels.

2009-04-09T17:20:00.002+08:00

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly

And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway

2009-03-31T11:16:00.002+08:00

heh i got a new bag! fred perry!
thanks rabster!

and im falling sick now.
roar

8. to the special one.

2009-03-30T18:14:00.001+08:00

happy anniversary

thank you
for sticking here with me through the good and the bad
for being so understanding and patient despite my working schedule
for encouraging me when im at my lowest
for always believing in me, supporting me and putting up with me
for making me laugh when i dont wanna smile

there will definately be more bumpy roads ahead
but with you here i know nothing is impossible and we will make it work

i love you and im proud to be able to call you mine.
:)

2009-03-26T13:46:00.002+08:00

i think there are more than 10 000 thoughts running through my head right now.

i need to swim.

take me away

2009-03-04T10:54:00.000+08:00

and i say. hang in there.
rachel yamagata in april. heh!

2009-02-24T18:52:00.000+08:00

To dream the impossible dream,
To fight the unbeatable foe,
To bear with unbearable sorrow,
To run where the brave dare not go.

To right the unrightable wrong,
To love pure and chaste from afar,
To try when your arms are too weary,
To reach the unreachable star.

This is my quest,
To follow that star --
No matter how hopeless,
No matter how far.
To fight for the right
Without question or pause,
To be willing to march
Into hell for a heavenly cause.

And I know if I'll only be true
To this glorious quest
That my heart will be peaceful and calm
when I'm laid to my rest.

And the world will be better for this,
that one man scorned and covered with scars
still strove with his last ounce of courage.
To reach the unreachable star.

2009-02-23T17:13:00.001+08:00

long long long weekend.
was working the whole time.
you made it better :)

another long week ahead.
its about time to close another deal.

ilu.

i wonder..

2009-02-14T01:21:00.003+08:00

good intentions turned bad

cant help but wonder.

two different perspectives.

im taking it till i cant.

The foolish race of mankind are swarming below in the night; they shriek and rage and quarrel -- and all of them are right.Heinrich Heine

Look at my face
What do you see in my eyes
When a part of me just dies
I cry real tears
I have real fears
I've got a heart that's beating inside

Sometimes it breaks, and when it aches
My eyes cry real tears
You treat me like you think I'm made of stone
Like when I'm cut I don't bleed
Don't you know that I'm flesh and bone

good night people.

2009-02-10T14:45:00.000+08:00

when the heart breaks, it dont break even

2009-02-04T09:44:00.003+08:00

in the office now and i am fighting with my emotions and the thoughts in my head

i thought abt alot of things to say but my mind is in a blank now.

its been a long week and i need a break.

comments

2009-02-01T18:29:00.002+08:00

sometimes people really shoot start thinking inside their heads
before shooting.

i start to question one's eq.

start practising internal locus of control.

click

2009-02-01T13:45:00.001+08:00

i want to press the fast forward button

2009-01-26T00:27:00.002+08:00

we dont even remember why were fighting for...
for nothing
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
Mad at you,
And I don't want you to go to bed
Mad at me.

2008-12-31T15:59:00.002+08:00

2009 will be a better year because:

-i have learnt the importance of always protecting myself first
-i open my eyes bigger now
-i learnt through the hard way and i will always remember that
-i learn not to trust people that easily
-i learn that there are lots of nato (no action talking only) people out there, so its better to depend on yourself
-i do not plan to carry these people forward into the new year

With 2009 approaching, i know that it will be a better year as

-i have my family, friends and most importantly, my gf here supporting me all the way

and i know thats all i need to make 09 a good year.

2008-12-24T12:08:00.002+08:00

the past few days were great
happy birthday love.
though it was not a blast, i hoped you enjoyed your day
with the tight budget you set!
i managed to squeeze in dinner present and picnic.

the futures uncertain esp with the current economy
i might not be able to help much
but i can be your listening ear and i will be here to support you.
hugs

happy birthday baby :)

2008-12-17T18:04:00.001+08:00

ran close to 3km yest.
considered nothin actually
but still. its an achievement since the last time i ran was when i was 16?

trying to train back.
14laps and 200 sit ups todae.

more running tml after dinner.

ok clubbing time!

2008-12-16T15:25:00.002+08:00

met up with an old friend recently.
as we sat down and chatted
realised that time flies
in no time she's gg to be a mother
new phase of life, with different set of worries.

makes me realise that time and tide waits for no men
what is it that i want to achieve before my time is up?

the simple meet up left me feeling relieved
i guess after all these years, finally i am able to let go of the past.
without even feeling a tinch of heartache.

and for the first time after 7 years, i can finally say that im over her
and that i am finally treating her just like a friend.

so....
do you know how much you mean to me now? for me to totally put something down.

all i want is to make things work with you.
ilu.

2008-12-15T18:19:00.002+08:00

ray cheng is gg to run later.
shall just stick to the route i ran last week
shall jog slowly today if not wed dont need to club.

wed clubbing anyone? same venue!

2008-12-11T14:47:00.003+08:00

www.pride-apparels.blogspot.com
to those that have been following this blog but not know about my latest venture
you better check it out now!

its a online store catered mainly for asian builts and people leading the alternative life. (people like me that loves to wear shirts that fit without looking like a hanger).

so please show your support, patronize the store and spread the word around!
if you see anything you like, just drop me an email or something!

2008-12-11T14:40:00.002+08:00

just wanna do a shout out to those who knows whats gg on right now
thanks alot for all the messages and concerns

with you guys by my side, and of course my girlfriend.
nothing will get me down

like they always say like if full of decisions
make the right one

side track:
i went running with macho mary and ah teh yesterday.
man.
they can freaking run man

to my one and only gf:
having you around believing in me and encouraging me makes a whole lot of difference.
for whatever im in, i know you will be there.
and for once i feel like i can really be myself and let someone in,
to share my thoughts, my fears and all the uncertainties i face.

dont ever feel that you have not done much when you have me wrapped around your fingers.

ilu.

2008-11-28T12:21:00.000+08:00

thank you darling.
and in case you dont know.
you mean the world to me.

decisions

2008-11-12T11:02:00.005+08:00

random

washing the tank is shit.

manly teh and myself almost died

and it is currently housing 140 odd fishes.

to condusive i would say

fry batch number one.

i swear if they dont start dying

im dead

my new phone is coming finally!

something to finally remind the scattered brains.

i need to read up the instruction manual for the new camera

been testing it out

friend commented that it is almost idiot proof.

pauper

ok lunch time.

missing you in a heart beat.

2008-11-08T17:35:00.002+08:00

i miss you.

2008-11-07T14:17:00.002+08:00

hey love
do enjoy yr short trip later.

not going to rant and nag as i know you know how to take good care of yrself.
im going to miss you though and im counting down till you're home.

though its just a short trip.
your gf is already missing you lots here.
have a good trip!

i may not be the best person that you can find
foul temper, bad with words, not delicate and sensitive enough
but yes im trying. and i do love you from deep down.

70 0dd hours till i see you again
cant wait

love ray.

2008-11-05T14:22:00.001+08:00

the biggest laggard finally owns a ipod
courtesy from the girlfriend
and yes the computer idiot had to google just to find out how to delete songs

1
2
3
yes just laugh already.

AVE Q!
heh
for those corrupted ones who have yet to catch it
pls do.

2008-10-31T12:44:00.002+08:00

happy third anniversary love
time sure flies.

this is only going to get stronger with the test of time
and i find myself just falling more as each day pass by.

even friends feel happy for me as they can see im truly happy and contented from within

we'll work things out as the going gets tough

2008-10-29T12:22:00.002+08:00

I never cared for simple words of tenderness
I never thought my life could be as sweet as this
But now I know, I want to spend it all with you, baby.

I drive my car and think about you constantly
I lie awake and I want to feel you next to me
What can I do? - my lifes only complete with you, baby
Oh dont you know
You are the one I treasure
A part of me forever

And Ill be there with you
Whatever you do
With all of my heart I promise you
Ill be there with you
Just know that its true
With all of my heart Im there for you
Wherever you go - Ill be there
Whatever were up against
Just know that Ill be there with you

Youre like the sun that brightens up the darkest skies
The only one Im seeing when I close my eyes
Oh cant you see, youll never be alone again, baby
Dont you know
You are the one I treasure
A part of me forever
Youre like the sunrise Ive waited to see
A beautiful moment always with me
Ive waited a lifetime only to be - be with you

2008-10-22T15:05:00.003+08:00

alan pls take good care of that nose of yours
not good looking already so please be more careful

its a rainy day and im home revising
a i u e o
ka ki ku ke ko
sa shi su se so

ever wondered how much time they are given to write an essay?
god.

after talking to t* i feel more positive about things now.

i had an awful hair cut and my hair looks like crap now
so i was in the worse mood yest and i could have killed someone while driving home yesterday

and i thank my girlfriend for being ever so understanding and tolerant.
hugs.
ilu

2008-10-20T22:56:00.002+08:00

ilu

and im sorry for the times that i made you feel insecure
for the times where i might not have spared a thought for you
for the tears that rolled down your cheek

for you i will be a better person
the one that you can count on

hope u're fine with the color of the player
was staring at all of them not knowing which to get.

we'll do this together.

2008-10-16T11:42:00.004+08:00

ooh its something about
just somethin about the way she move
i cant figure it out
theres somethin about her
its somethin about
kinda woman that want you but dont need you
hey i cant figure it out
theres something about her

cause she walk like a boss
talk like a boss
manicured nails to set the pedicure off
shes fly effortlessly
and she move like a boss
do what a boss do
she got me thinkin about getting involved
thats the kinda girl i need oh
she got her own thing thats why i love her
miss independent
wont you come and spend a little time
she got her own thing
thats why i love her
ooh the way we shine
miss independent
ooh theres somethin about
kinda woman that can do for herself
i look at her and it makes me proud
theres somethin about her
theres somethin oh so sexy about
kinda woman that dont even need my help
she said she got it she got it no doubt
theres something about her

2008-10-14T15:34:00.000+08:00

negativity.

2008-10-08T00:27:00.001+08:00

will you stand by me
hold on and never let me go?

i am blessed to find what i need
in the world losing hope
youre my only believe
you make things right every time after time.

2008-10-07T21:42:00.002+08:00

today is just one of those days where you feel like crap
getting all sensitive and feeling vulnerable

where you just want to snap out of it but you dont know how.

good night people.

2008-09-30T09:37:00.002+08:00

time flies when you are happy
its the second month now
im really happy that we took the first step together
trying to work things out and accepting each others flaws.

i love you
and for you,
i'll be the person that you want me to be.

happy 2nd month anniversary love.

2008-09-22T14:05:00.000+08:00

I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

2008-09-18T11:40:00.001+08:00

you are the pillar in my life
that keeps me going
i love you baby.

for us

thank god i found you

2008-09-12T00:28:00.004+08:00

you.
the little things you do
just make me love you more

days pass.
and everyday i just keep reminding myself
how lucky i am
to just have you here by my side.

im yours
im strong on the surface
but not all the way through
so take my heart and handle it with care
and in return
i will be here for you
to walk with you
hand in hand
ilu

2008-09-02T18:53:00.000+08:00

It's your love
Better than I was
More than I am
All of that happened
By takin' your hand
Who I am now
Is who I've wanted to be
Now that we're together
Stronger than ever, happy and free
Oh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
And if you ask me why I'll change
All I gotta do is say your sweet name

2008-08-31T16:53:00.002+08:00

happy anniversary baby

i realised something yesterday

it doesnt matter where we are

or what we do

or whos with us

just as long as you are there

be it whether its the 30 or the 31st.

im glad that we both take the step

and i hope you like the little gift.

sounds cliche

but yes you are carrying a part of me with you now.

with love :)

2008-08-29T16:05:00.002+08:00

sometimes i cant help thinking whether im cut out
or whether im competent

drained.

the voice inside that tells you to just keep going and trying
just gets softer

with all the what ifs swirling in your head.

am i alone at this?

2008-08-27T11:46:00.004+08:00

hi.
i am still alive
not for long now
just read an article on smoking
on how 23 yr olds look like 32
wah. hit me hard man.

to a healthier regime
i have decided that
fri would be swimming day
sat massage day

ms teh.
imu

2008-08-22T11:57:00.002+08:00

why am i waiting.

i need divine intervention
forces from the dark side
anything!

i need sales
anyone tt wants to advertise in a gourmet magazine
pls look for evelyn cheng.
thankyouverymuch

2008-08-20T17:48:00.002+08:00

things are always like that
when you are desperate and when you want something alot
it just doesnt happen

and when you walk away from the deal or from the situation
it comes knocking on your door

should i or should i not.

argh!

its 5.51pm
39 more mins to the happiest time of my day
baby time.

everyday i love you

2008-08-19T17:56:00.002+08:00

no more talk of darkness
forget these wide eyed fears
im here, nothing can harm you
my words will warm and calm you
let me be your freedom
let daylight dry your tears
im here, beside you
to guard you and to guide you

say you love me every waking moment
turn my head with talk of summertime
say you need me with you
now and always
promise me that all you say is truue

thats all i ask of you

2008-08-14T10:43:00.002+08:00

you have stolen my heart

cos every little thing you do
makes me fall in love with you

it takes more than a hopeless romantic to sweep me off my feet
it takes you.

2008-08-10T23:09:00.001+08:00

see the pyramids around the Nile
watch the sunrise from a tropic isle
just remember darling all the while
you belong to me
see the marketplace in old Angier
send me photographs and souvenirs
just remember when a dream appears
you belong to me
and I'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too
fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember till you're home again
you belong to me oh
I'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too
fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember till you're home again
you belong to me

2008-08-10T21:54:00.002+08:00

get well soon baby girl
days without you around are hard to get by.
the thought of an energizer bunny resting at home is just worrying.
hugs. missing you girl

starting work tml.
mixed emotions.
just hope that i can rise to the occasion
and be bigger the problems that would come.

positive mindset.

think before you speak
i know what i want, and im grabbing on to it.

sleep early day today.

lurking

2008-08-06T13:07:00.002+08:00

the perfect night to go hand in hand through the mission
as the night goes on danger lurks

Intimacy is invited,
ecstasy is invoked.
Ecstasy is experienced as one-ness
intimacy requires two-ness

so does paranoia
braving away from external, unforseen circumstances
till its overwhelming
shelving away all other emotions and attractions

you are experiencing
very joy
very hugo

2008-08-04T10:54:00.002+08:00

two straight days of tanning.
and im officially black

still hunting for jobs.
trust me. i have been sending out tons of resumes.
marketing/pr/events/advertising.
to no avail

necks finally getting better now, and hopefully after the massage tml
it will be fine.
cabling on sat! (fingers cross)

quick shout out:

lulu: meet soon. you better update me more abt that fridae.com girl (yet another)
thunder: thanks.
ash: first day at work. hit it with your best shot!
you: and im just counting down the hours. missing you.

2008-07-30T13:59:00.001+08:00

lets remember today's date.
for its one worth looking back, reminiscing

hopeless romantic maybe.
but im your hopeless romantic.

all i ever need or want is just a chance
to prove its worth

and yes im here to hold your hand
braving through it all.

capiche?

ok.
i need to send more resumes.

2008-07-30T01:26:00.000+08:00

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be, always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one
I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul...
You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine, moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
common lets try

2008-07-30T01:18:00.000+08:00

im happy.

the next time the same question is asked.
all i have to say is i know what i want.
and its right in front of me.

interview the other day was 1.5 hrs long
and im seriously just worn out
interviews after interviews.
getting through the first round and waiting for the person to get back to you
man.

jobless with loads of time on hand would only mean...
being broke.

went to watch X files today
thought it was kinda draggy.
ray cheng being ray cheng.
rushed for nothing.
thought the show was at 630 instead of 7.
imagine.

sometimes things people do really just leave you speechless.
i know what i want and i wont sway though

jobs jobs jobs

liang yong qi-yong qi

2008-07-23T13:24:00.000+08:00

i dont believe that she wants to come bk to me anymore.

2008-07-22T21:52:00.000+08:00

i see you, you with him
he aint right but you dont trip
you stand by while he lies
then turn right round and forgive

i cant take to see your face
with those tears runnin down your cheeks
but what can i do, i gotta stay true
because deep down im still a G

i dont want to come between you and your man
even though i know i treat you better than he can

girl i cant help but wait
till you get that with him it wont change
cant help but wait
till you see that with me it aint the same

cant help but wait
till you see you for what you really are
baby girl you are a star
and i cant help but wait

2008-07-22T21:50:00.000+08:00

sometimes it feels like im in this alone
but if time is what you need.
i'll be there when turn around

cant help but wait

2008-07-22T13:52:00.000+08:00

the wheels on the bus go round and round
round and round,
round and round

wakie sat?

looking forward towards the weekend

and.

i need a god damn job

2008-07-18T13:53:00.001+08:00

tears that burn the pillow
nobody knows it but me.

take a chance, come undone
no one knows whats at the other side waiting.
no one knows how things will end up to be.

take the leap.
even if i fall, i know i can get up in no time.

slipknot-wait and bleed

2008-07-18T13:08:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2008-07-16T17:14:00.000+08:00

its really funny how things work out sometimes
trying and perserverance might not get one anywhere sometimes, when it comes to feelings at least.
i guessed i have had my fair share of that.
trying to ignore to signs and still live in self denial that things would work its way out
that people will learn how to change.
its just like a man clinging to his very life beliving in divine intervention

i guess after some time
you will jus learn how to stop hoping
stop pretending that everything is fine.

i guess everyone has their right to be happy
i want to be happy
and leave this mess

its only through events like this.
it makes me realise tt small little things make me really happy

no one knows whats going to happen in future
i will just take it as it comes.
one step at a time.
contentment.

no promises.

2008-07-12T14:53:00.000+08:00

Knew the signs wasn’t right
I was stupid, for a while Swept away, by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be

Catch myself, from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy, everyday
I know I will be ok
But I’m So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You’ll be out of my mind
I’ll be over you
And know I’m So confused My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There’s a life out there for me

crushed.

2008-07-12T14:32:00.000+08:00

just that when you thought things couldnt get any worse
it does.
my old pal and i were talking just a few days back about how we should react when we realise our first loves are getting married.

i kinda just shrug it off because i thought that it wont happen to me, not as yet.
and i was all so wrong.

dinner was fine yesterday catching up with an old friend
till she broke the news to me.
do you know that kw is getting married?
she totally regretted telling me that very instant.

i totally cant comprehend how exactly i was feeling
all i kept saying was the man is a very very lucky guy
and if he ever screws it up
his nuts is surely gg to be on a silver platter
but i guess she is both smart and old enough to make her own decisions
you wont be reading this at all
but i wish you all the best in everything you do

if you guys are wondering, yes after a long thought.
i will be there.

so many things have been happening in such a short period of time
now i wonder whether lesbians are nothing but drama.

sometimes i feel that when something is no longer working
someone has to take the step to cut things off.
even though you will leave your comfort zone.

relationship.
when the relation boarded a whrecked ship
what happens.
i guess two people who are in love have to just treasure what they have and steer it into the correct directions
finding ways to fall in love everyday
learning more about each other and all
but what happens when the betrayal comes?
when water is sipping in slowly and surely into the ship.

2008-07-08T12:11:00.000+08:00

the harder you try
the harder you fall.
and in the end you feel like all is in vain
indifferent to the situation or the person.

so who is to blame?
the person who does not feel the same way anymore
or the person who got it bad right from the start?

misunderstood.

2008-07-01T14:22:00.000+08:00

HELL LOT OF FISHES and yes i am scared.

some jap rest.

2008-07-01T14:09:00.000+08:00

this is how to kill time

view from our room

karon beach-phuket

2008-06-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

back for two days now
photos will be up in no time.
i love phuket!
the beach, the sea, the sand.
i wanna be back to body surf.

bkk is as usual.
hot and humid. didnt really enjoy since i was not feeling well

diarrhoea for two days now.
argh

time to go look for a job after all the damage.
there goes my 3k :(

i should not have bought.

1: my psp (cos my sister and my gf use them more than i do)
2: gucci belt (cos i haven got a chance to wear it)
3: the hell bell jeans ( so what if its a french label)
4: the paul smith shoes (so what if my gf said its nice)
5: tailor make 6 shirts

with all the money spent i could have gotten a nice nice tattoo

i need to save money!
thank god the insurance claim is coming

i want to go bk to phuket.
or go to krabi/ koh samui/cebu/maldives
(ashley can stay here all she wants)
my gf is burnt!

2008-06-11T14:11:00.000+08:00

Do you know where your heart is
Do you think you can find it
Did you trade it for something, somewhere
Better just to have it
Do you know where your love is
Do you think that you lost it
You felt it so strong but nothings
Turned out how you want it
Well bless my soulYou`re a lonely soul
Cause you wont let go
Of anything you hold

Well all I need is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head
Do you know what your fate is
And are you trying to shake it
You`re doing your best and
You`re best look
You`re praying that you`ll make it
Well bless my soul
You`re a lonely soul
Cause you wont let go
Of anything you hold

im bored stiff at home down with lungs infection.
i wish im still schooling or something man. at least i will be occupied
dempsy tonight, sis's bdae.
i shall not drink so much

2008-06-08T17:41:00.000+08:00

i want to fall in love again.
how?

2008-06-08T13:49:00.000+08:00

though sick

WHERE MA PARTY PEOPLE AT!?

wed.thurs.

note to my sis: dont bother detoxing. try after wed. haha

2008-06-07T15:58:00.000+08:00

Don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow
Grab your clothes and get gone (You better hurry up)
Before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' bout "Girl, I love you you're the one..."
This just looks like a re-run (Please)
What else is on?
And don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow A
nd the award for the best liar goes to you
For makin' me believe That you could be Faithful to me
Let's hear your speech oh...
How bout a round of applause?
But it's over now...

2008-06-07T15:06:00.000+08:00

finally im a graduate.
took half a semester longer than others
results are not as good as i expected it to be.

got 2 HD and a Dist but ended up with credits for exams.
mum's still really happy bout it that she broadcasted to everyone i know.
the next thing i knew people were congratulating me.
wah lao.
degree only, think i got PHD meh!

before i can enjoy my break
im down with flu and all.
i hope i recover by next week.

sapphira come back soon ok, i do miss you

its shopping time!

to buy list (courtesy of mummy kim)
1: tissot watch
2: E.A watch
3: oakley/marc jacobs glasses
4: more working shirts :(
5: pants
6: flat screen tv for my room

to be cont.

2008-06-01T14:14:00.000+08:00

interviews interviews interviews
talk about transitions
think im gg to suffer from identity crisis soon

bought just one ladies shirt n pants and 240 bucks vanished.
i need to tailor man!

2008-05-27T14:26:00.000+08:00

its scary how thoughts and beliefs can be moulded into young minds
through different means, evoking fear, making them feel lousy and than presenting them the solution to the problems.

it makes you think again.
jesus camp.

which brings me to a topic.
the two women came knocking on my door again
looking for miss cheng.
with a bible in hand with a horse like smile showing their teeth
persistent? yes very.
not sensitive and stubborn? very as well
respect one's decision man.

i think they should be marketers and sales personnels instead.

2008-05-21T14:50:00.000+08:00

When the one thing you’re looking for
Is nowhere to be found
And you back stepping all of your moves
Trying to figure it out
You wanna reach out
You wanna give in
Your head’s wrapped around what’s around the next bend
You wish you could find something warm
'Cause you’re shivering cold
It’s the first thing you see as you open your eyes
The last thing you say as your saying goodbye
Something inside you is crying and driving you on
It’s the first thing you see as you open your eyes
The last thing you say as your saying goodbye
Something inside you is crying and driving you on'
Cause if you hadn't found me
I would have found you

something inside

2008-05-20T13:03:00.000+08:00

as im the only cam whore tt night together with lulu

i dont have pictures of the rest of the crew

babe, send me those in your phone!

ok the weather is driving me insane

even the dogs at home are restless and not responding.

i NEED a hair cut

2008-05-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

as usual i teared while catching made of honour
sometimes you never know how to appreciate things and people in your life till they are gone
and than you will fight to get them back.

why cant one just accept the fact and support the person whole heartedly
at least thats what i'll do

keyshia cole-i remember

2008-05-17T14:33:00.000+08:00

clubbing on thurs made me realised that im no longer young when
1: u see people using sec/poly passes
2: your hair feels deflated in comparison to others out there
3: you can no longer hold/ consume as much as before
4: you wake up and feeling zonked throughout the whole day

2 hours of cabling before that sure did not help

i want to do my jump start 360 and get up the blardy ramp!

2008-05-14T15:22:00.000+08:00

exams are finally over
hopefully the results will justify my efforts
kinda screwed up amca again.

however for the first time i would say that im really proud of myself this time ard.
i have proved to myself that for once i can be a leader and i can be an asset in the group
for once, leading a group instead of just taking orders, putting in more initiative
it was not easy at all
things turned out to be kinda ugly as well with former group mates and all
but yes at the end of the day, i realised that i can manage all well without any drama or disputes.

friends come and go.
some even shun away
no one is perfect, and im glad that for those who are still around

really appreciate all the encouragements and shoulders that were there when i needed them.
sharon, thunder, ivy, wei jie, alan, lulu, huishi and most importantly ashley
thanks :)

for now its just working part time
rearing and trying to keep my fishes alive
and couting down to phuket and bkk.

till then

no pain no gain

2008-04-18T23:48:00.001+08:00

face plant. butt hit the fun box. hip got whacked on the fun box, sprained ankle
you name it.
2 hours without much break.
the right side of my body is soar now.

i swear im going through puberty
lunch: big large pizza, one big burger with extra cheese, egg and bacon
dinner: sakae dinner

whens the last time we paid entrance fee and visited some tourist-y area
we did today; under water world.
haha. i want to squeeze the slow stupid fish again.
feels so good patting e stingray. it feels so tender, fresh and edible. heh
hope the weather will be less cranky on monday
i need to tann

i want to cable soon too, in my new jersey! heh
all i need now is my life vest.
better still ipod touch a water proof case, to hit the wake

ciao.

2008-04-17T17:34:00.000+08:00

exams: may 8th and 12th
i need divine intervention!
thank god mok is willing to tutor me.
really appreciate that.

ok.
ray cheng's want list.

oris skeleton watch/ cartier watch
bally bag
liquid force/ o neil life jacket
tailored made working clothes (more of a need)
taiwan trip
bangkok and phuket trip
tag/ swiss flex/ hugo boss glasses

finally.

2008-04-06T13:18:00.000+08:00

this semester is coming to an end.
submitted the final project on friday with a great sense of realive
finally its done.

the beginning of this semester was not smooth sailing at all
lots of drama, members leaving and all.
lots of mixed emotions then, thinking abt what would happen to the group, whether i can make it alone, why some can make such a drastic step and all.

im just glad that i have a bunch of great friends supporting me throughout
like the saying goes, what doesnt kill you makes you stronger, as you have to rise to the occasion
and i guess i did.
some just talk,
but my pals walk the talk.

keith, thanks for the msg that night, it really motivated me alot. sticking through and all
lulu: really appreciate you hearing me out and comforting me.
sharon chang: HUGS
thunder: always steering me back to the right direction.
last but not least
thank you baby girl.
its not just words you speak.
its your actions.

when you do what you do best.

2008-04-03T12:03:00.002+08:00

the signs are clear
the reasonings are stupid
the obvious lies

the next time you want to lie about stuffs.
why not take it from me.
do not be so eager to prove your innocence
come out with a game plan first.

and i wonder how do you quarrel with someone
when you claimed you couldnt be bothered to even read it
and you only cldnt be bothered to read it only when am ard,
anxiously pushing the lap top away from me, closing the screen?

im not born yesterday.
neither am i as dumb as you think i am.

when you do what you do best.

2008-04-03T12:03:00.001+08:00

2008-03-25T19:57:00.000+08:00

thanks to the stupid credit card syndicates
im one credit card less.

wacc sucks!
amca too

dempsy

2008-03-08T15:37:00.000+08:00

3 bottles of champgne
4 beers = no school today

had a great time yest with a couple of pals
catchin up
its hilarious when they are gone.

sometimes i have to learn how to be contented.

2008-03-04T23:22:00.000+08:00

time check:11.23pm
just came back home not too long ago.
BF test... i made such a stupid careless mistake today! argh
shall just pray for the best
cant wait for the results to be out

went to super famous with nad and the rest
i swear its never good to place a whole bunch of marketing students together
good fun though

the back of my van has a new name
its called love shack.
and no i did not come out with that name

i haven seen a bulge for a long time
dinner was crazy
its time i hit the gym or somethin.
food at raku zen was good though.

ok
WACC SUCKS